What do you want to eat for dinner?

[brigid]

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I wanted pizza for dinner. I’ll be frank, here. Pizza is my go-to food. I would have to eat a LOT of pizza for a LONG period of time to get tired of pizza. It does not take much pizza for me to literally get sick of pizza, however. As much as I enjoy pizza, I’m lactose intolerant AND have problems digesting more than a small amount of meat, so pizza with, say, cheese and pepperoni or sausage? Wow, that can potentially cause some problems. Oh, onions and garlic also make me sick if I eat more than X amount, and X varies. So basically my most favorite food in the entire world frequently causes me SEARING AGONY AND PRAYERS FOR DEATH.

Welcome to the State Of My Guts post, I guess.

Anyway, I was slightly concerned for a while that I had a problem with a wheat allergy or sensitivity, or celiac or something, because I frequently get sick when I eat pizza and not being able to eat wheat specifically or gluten generally is like a big nightmare for me. But then I realized that I’d eaten a quantity of (home made) (blueberry) muffins today and was fine. So flour is not the problem.

So I walked around my kitchen a little bit, looked in the freezer (no pizza) (I knew there was no pizza and looked anyway, hope springs eternal, ok?), looked in the cabinets, looked in the sink (for what? I don’t know. I just looked.), looked in the freezer again, and then made a sandwich. I had some chili cheese fritos on the side, and now they are all gone.

I really want some more chili cheese fritos.

I think my body is trying to kill me.

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Comments

[cleverthylacine]

The thing about having celiac, just so you know, is that your body gets used to being poisoned, so sometimes, you DON'T feel bad after you poison it.

This is why you don't figure it out right away. You don't get sick every time you eat wheat; you're just mildly sick ALL THE TIME, and you don't know why, and you think, maybe it's corn, maybe it's dairy, maybe it's fibro. There is gut stuff sometimes after you eat something really egregious. For me I could count on being sick if I ate gravy. The combination of wheat, meat, and dairy in a lot of roux made me especially ill, so I thought maybe being kosher was making me feel better when I did that, only it never lasted because meat and dairy separate and/or together were never the problem, it's just that adding a lot of fat to my gluten would sometimes make everything worse. Pizza was one of my death meals; I'd really crave it and enjoy it and love eating it, and I would then feel like SHIT. Which I attributed to the fact that (because celiac cravings make you a hungry hungry hippo) I had eaten half a fucking pizza. Or even all of the pizza. (When I was married to my second husband he complained all the time about me being fat, but he wouldn't share a pizza; we each had to get our own, and like as not, I'd eat mine--if I left it in the fridge for leftovers he'd eat it anyway. Third husband was a fat fetishist so he would actively encourage me to eat the whole pizza.)

I'm not saying YOU ARE CELIAC omg, but if you really want to know you should get the blood tests when you can afford it/are on healthcare assistance/insurance of some kind, because that is the only way to be sure.