It all comes at you, 1000 things at once

[brigid]

I vowed not to write about my kid but that's the only thing on my mind right now for so many different reasons, all of them serious.

It's hard being a parent.

It's hard being a kid! But God when you're a parent you've got your heart running around outside of your body getting bruised and scraped and all you can do is hope it never gets broken, but you know it will. That's a big part of being alive.

Ahh, that's enough about my kid. Moving on.

We moved into our home 13 years ago. We've painted and we've put some art on the walls and we have a really nice rug in the living room but we've delayed a lot of what we've wanted to do with this place. Some of it is just money, some of it is just time, some of it is both. And a lot of this is a tetris of issues where we can't do A until we do B and we need to do C and D before we can do B but we can't do C until we do E and F and if we do F that'll affect D so we'll need to do G and H to solve THAT problem etc. It's very frustrating, it's stressful, and it's easier to just... not.

But we've gotten some Actual Art framed (original stuff by Shaenon Garrity and Lynda Barry) and we've got some funky shelves up and the art's on the walls and it's... an improvement.

Each year this place feels more like home. I've moved so, so much and it's nice to be rooted someplace and it's nice to shape it into home.

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Started writing a reply, it turned into an essay. Too long didn't post version: I have always liked working around our rooms to make the space work better. Sometimes just by switching furniture, sometimes a bigger change. But funding is much trickier since we had a kid!